Monday, 14 June 2010
Hey diary, I'm back again.
recently, my life have been better.
Thanks to ppl like friends around me, my boyfriend, Eugene, Adrian, ahwee and all those in my network. Thank you people!
Without you guys, I dont know what to do. Thanks.
:)
xoxo
my fate?
Wednesday, 9 June 2010
Today was not a good day for me. Many things happened this month.
My brother & I arent close anymore. Honesty, I don't like the way my bf handles my problem. I just don't know how to prove or show him why my brother & I are close. If only, my brother walked up to him & tell him why is it so. but it proves me wrong, my brother left. He didn't do anything.
Which I am disappointed in it.
Next thing, It happened in school. My teachers, staffs are bias. I just sense it. How to put it in words? Hmmm, let me see...
Well, it all begins with Ms Mani, My poa teacher. She kind of look after Class C. & definitely she would want them to score better. That's how I feel & of course, She did is undiscreetly.
Secondly, about my staff. I was late on tuesday for my exam paper, I came before 9.30am. & She didn't let me go in to do, because you have to arrive here by 9.15am, thats the latest. & so, I did beg like, please, let me go in do my paper and she insisted on No. So I took the paper 1 maths, walk out the office. While waiting for my friends to finish their paper, I did afew of the questions.
Next day, which is today, 09/06/2010 , wednesday, Maths paper 2. Darryl was late for paper, he arrived at 9.45am, he wasn't allow to enter. So I didnt think much, but he came in my class, sat a chair apart from me. Did his work. I finished mine, he also left. Before I come into the real part on why was Cindy bias. Sabrina said, he just try out, he won't get any marks. I was relieve.
okay, so I left.
We both went out to smoke. Bump into cindy along our way to smoking area. He pull/asked darryl to aside. Talked to him. & best, she did it undiscreetly too!
I was curious, I ask darryl what did she said?
He said, cindy allowed him to do his paper and not to tell anyone about this, I will jsut let the other teachers know that you aren't late.
My reaction to this were so worked up. I feel like why is she being this way, why is she bias? I hate this school.
I really do. Why is it so unfair? why did she let me despise her? Why did she make me lose my trust? Why did she have to do this and make me feel like giving up this whole thing that I've begin.
I just feel unfair, backstabbed.
I told my dad about this, he started whinning, I screamed at him back, why can't you just show more care & concern about this? like hello? I'm a victim?
I stomped to my room angrily & sad.
My dad shouted, aiyahhhh, i dont know is it your fate or what? like that then like that lor. what to do?
i'm totally disappointed & really feel like talking to someone important to me right now. which I can't get from.
Is this really my fate?
xoxo